I think I might just cry a little tonight

While on the way to see my OB/GYN to get another beta draw (and to talk about my HSG results with her), I came across a billboard with a happy baby picture that said something like this "embryos are just tiny babies." Had I read the entire message, I would have not only killed my embryo, but also myself, so I am not entirely sure what the billboard was really all about.

BUT, regardless. A message like that is not helping anybody. Not the women who go through pregnancy losses, not the women who go through (multiple) IVF treatments, and not the women who, for whatever, reason chose not to continue a pregnancy. All it accomplishes (in my mind) is to make the first two groups sadder and the second one more guilty (and quiet possibly sadder as well).

Also, I think I am going to cry a little bit tonight for my lost embryo. I haven't started bleeding yet, but I sense it's just around the corner. I am really okay, and I don't feel like I'm lying when I answer random requests in regard to my well-being with a firm "fine", but, I am also a litte sad. Who wouldn't though, right?

I also knew this was coming at some point, in fact, I think it was overdue: Miss V. wants a baby (sister) in my tummy. And all because her hero "Angelina, Ballerina" got a little sister. Miss V mentioned her wish a couple of times this week. Surprisingly, it hurt a whole lot less than I imagined it would (particularly given that I was "pregnant, not expecting" (->DinoD, by the way how are you???). This just in: the number is down to 10). I just told her that sometimes babies come and sometimes they don't. We just have to wait and see.

So, now I just need my period, so that we can go on with the scheduled show.

Have a good weekend, you all!