I think my RE is giving up on me

...or already has, I don't know. And I don't know how I feel about this.

I met with him last week, and the meeting was a bit weird. I asked him about another HSG (maybe coupled with Letrozole) because at this point I am mostly interested in plumbing maintenance. His response? Donor Eggs?! I had thought we had put this option to rest for the time being. Actually, thinking about his response makes me much more angry now than I was during the meeting. Funny how that works.

Anyway, he would be okay with another HSG but if there is evidence of scarring (particularly the tubes), he is not going to do anything about it. He doesn't want to subject me to any more (unnecessary) surgery. See, why I feel he's giving up on me?

He may be right, I may never get pregnant again in my life (without donor eggs). But I am so tired of having my eggs be blamed for all the failures. I may be delusional, but I think without the Asherman's I may have had a chance a couple of years ago. My eggs were not always crappy. And last year, after a clean-up and with an open tube, I did manage to become pregnant. Probably a bad egg, but good enough to implant at least.

I don't know where I am going with this. I don't even know why this all bothers me so much. After four years of secondary infertility I should be able to finally accept our three person family.