Have you had your annual mole check-up yet?

I went to the dermatologist last week. "What a nice doctor" I thought when she said "I always like to see you." But wait: that was before she continued to say "because you have over 100 moles and therefore are more likely to get melanomas." Gulp. Nothing like a meeting with your doctors when they throw cancer threats right at you. And yes, I am practically a walking mole. Right now you can still see a glimmer of my "natural" skin tone shining through here and there, but as I grow more and more of those moles, well, let's just say I look more and more dotted. I even grow them on the palms of my hands! The sunny side of the growing moles is, of course, that one day I will only have one mole instead of the 100s I have now. It'll be big, sure, but only one (and therefore my likelihood of melanomas should go down, right? RIGHT?!) . It's been some time since they cut out some of my moles for future preservation (mine that is). Last week I said good-bye to another. By the way, Dr. Google diagnosed me with some hereditary mole issue. Just wondering about my little sister now. She has just as many moles as I do, but in addition she's also losing skin pigments. That should cancel the cancer threat, I would think. It's like a built-in eraser...

I remember in pre-infertility years, I took my skin much more seriously than i do at the moment. For some reason I cannot get the energy up and check my beloved moles as often as I should. I do, however, take my doctor's visits seriously. And I am moderately good about not getting too much sun (and using sun screen). I have given up on getting a nice tan a long time ago. It just doesn't happen. My natural skin tone, as much as you can still see of it, is ghostly white. It doesn't burn as easily as people think it would, but it doesn't obain much color either (unless of course I grow another mole...). But I have to admit: sometimes I like to feel sunshine on my face...it just feels so damn good.

Unfortunately, there is no sunshine here in the Northwest. I am cold. And apparently we won't have nice sunshine for yet another couple of days?!

i am excited though because tomorrow we will start our garden project 2007! Yes, we will finally be able to get rid off the dandilion salad field in our front yard and replace it with some low-maintenance plants and a patio. And the street side strip will be covered in some nice ground-covers that do not need to be moved every other day! We have a corner lot. Never again. Far too much street garden to take care off. But of course, as first time home owners we didn't think of those things.

Sometimes I catch up on pregnant (in)fertility blogs and am surprised how far along the pregnancies are. Some of them started shortly before I had my first round of positive tests (Feb), some before my second round (April). It boggles my mind to think that with some luck I could be far into my second trimester or at least leaving my first. It's not that I get incredibly sad when i have those thoughts but they do make me sentimental. I also still look at my collection of positive tests and shake my head in wonder.

The collection has not got bigger. The last round of tests dared to be completely negativ, followed by another period. I am currently on day 3. Guess, I will not use Letrozole this cycle either as i haven't talked to my RE yet. I have to call him tomorrow though to make an ultrasound appointment to spy on my lining. Hope things look okay in there, but that's all i can do anyway: hoping.

Today i finished another little set of summer pants for Miss V. It feels good to be productive.